It's painful to see him day in and day out, and know that I could never be with him. Why do I torment myself with this love that I have for him. My hopes fade quickly as he talks to some gal from another state, and I wonder why I can't have that with him instead, why can't that be me instead of her. Over that past few months I really felt we had gotten to know each other pretty well, and then this gal comes into the picture.
Why is it so hard for me to find the right guy? Why is it so hard for me to find the guy that I can love and that can love me just as much back? Why is it that I always fall for the straight guys that can't love me back?
I do enjoy being friends with him, but my heart wants what it desires, but alas I can't have my cake and eat it to.
Will I live on to my old age all alone? Will I ever meet the right guy and not some random guy that I say I love you to, just because I'm desprite and afraid? I want to experience real love. Why can't it be with him?
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