And yet i encourage (locked)

Why do I encourage the behavior that makes me jelous? I want that. I don't want them to do it I want it. Yet I encourage it. Why?? What's wrong with me? I create my own drama. I hate this. I can't control it I can't partake in the fun. I hate being left out I HATE not getting the guy I want. Why do my female friends always steal the guys I want.